Day 2

Day 2

Today was yet another uneventful day. I like it this way. Of course there was one incident that kind of ruffled my feathers a bit. I was talking to my aunt Carolyn on the phone for a while. Soon my cell phone rang. I have our home phone forwarded to my cell phone while we are house sitting. I look at the phone, it says “Jodi”. I didn’t make it in time to answer it. I decided it was time to get off the phone with my aunt so I could see what Jodi was up to. Then my cell phone rang again. Guess who. I again missed the call and the phone stopped ringing. So I tried to call Jodi back; straight to voice mail. Okay so I tried another couple of times; again, straight to voice mail. I figured the only way her phone would do this is if she was either calling someone else, or had her phone off. Well knowing Jodi, she was calling everyone in her phone book to tell them she could not find me. Finally after 20 minutes of trying to get thru on her phone, she answered. I asked her “Who did you call after you called me twice?” she replied with “No one”. I told her that if she had not called anyone, her phone would not have sent me to voice mail. Again, she said no one. After asking three more times, she finally said she called the bakery and called R&C’s house to see if I was back there. So she DID call someone. UGH!

I went home and did some more cleaning today. The house should be SPOTLESS by the time we are ready to go home. It will be wonderful. Normally I do a bunch of cleaning in one day, then get so wore out that I don’t clean for a week. By then the place is completely trashed because none of us (including myself) know how to pick up after our selves.

I changed the cat litter, washed some dishes, swept the kitchen floor, vacuumed in the girl’s room, washed more of our bedding, dusted, and cleaned the TV and windows. I can’t wait to go over there again and do a bit more. By the time we get home, I want to start a major de clutter job so we have less to move. No matter what I get rid of, we still will have a lot to move, but less would be better. Besides, no use of moving the stuff we don’t need or want all the way to a different state.

I made spaghetti for dinner. It turned out rather yummy. Of course Zoe and Caitlin did not agree. They played with the food on their plates for a while before I got frustrated and took them away.

*** Ten days left.

Day 1

Day 1

Today is off to an okay start for house sitting and Jodi sitting. Nothing too exciting has happened. Ron and Carol dropped Caitlin off at school on their way out of town. I went home to do some cleaning, laundry and to visit the cats for a while this morning. Then to the post office, later Zoe and I brought Mc Donalds back to R&Cs house. I am rather mad at Mc Donalds though. The toy that was on the drive thru board was NOT the same toy they gave me. It was a cute puppy thing, but the awful toy we got was some weird looking guy jumping rope. I went and got my computer today around 2 then to pick up Caitlin from school. Good thing, because I am bored out of my mind.

Tony is still down in Iowa job hunting. I wish him luck. I really miss him being around and I hope he comes back to me soon or even at all. I hope he finds a great job. I can not wait to get out of this town and away from my many “babysitters”.

Hopefully tomorrow will be just as exciting. Unless my husband comes home to me, then I will be very excited!

Tomorrow night is open scrapbook night. I am not going because that is MY time and I am not going to lug my children there with me. Besides, even if I do take them with, I will not get anything done! Not like that is anything new from other nights I go but still.

On a side note, its amazing how much stuff myself and the children will need for only 12 days. Clothes, toys, bath stuff, shower stuff, stuff stuff.

Oh Joy!

Oh great. It’s Saturday night. That means, tomorrow I must lug the children and 12 days worth of stuff over to my aunt and uncles to house and Jodi sit. I’m very excited. No. Really, I am. (Not) I can not wait until the 17^th when I can lug the children and our 12 days worth of stuff back home. Is it the 17^th yet? Please say yes.

What am I going to do for 12 days away from home? I don’t know. I am thinking of lugging my computer over there so I have SOMETHING to do. I guess I could bring my stamping/scrapbooking stuff, but I have a feeling I won’t be in the mood to actually stamp or scrapbook over there.

At least Tony gets to go to Mason City, Iowa to job hunt. He will only be gone Sunday Monday and Tuesday, and then be at work Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday, and I bet he finds a way to run away again the next week. I totally don’t blame him. But if I have to put up with Jodi, he should too, dammit! Okay, maybe not, but still. he he

I am so thrilled about going over there tomorrow; I haven’t even started packing yet. Some of that has to do with the laundry I still have to do, mostly not though.

Can I possibly bitch anymore? I am sure that I can. I’m really good at it too!

“Oh did you cut your hair?” “Um no… not in months actually”

“Oh I miss you guys so much” “great whatcha going to do when we move to IOWA!”

“Oh look at me look at me!” ugh.

/rant

yes. I put some really offensive yellow in there, just to annoy you as much as I will be in the next few days.

fun!

Yesterday I went to St. Cloud to visit my friend Heather (pinefeather). The drive there was short, the way home took forevvvverr. When I got there, her kids came to me like I have been around often. It’s been a very long time since I have gone to see them. Our schedules just never matched up, and if they did, it would snow, or something silly like that.

Tacy went to school around 12:45, and then Heather, Hana and I went to lunch and shopping. While we were at McDonalds, Hana decided that she really likes me. She crawled almost on my lap and cuddled with me. In her sweet little voice she said “Christy, I love you!” Hehe so much fun.

Heather had a meeting for work at 5, and Hana was still napping when we left. I guess she asked where mommy was, then where Christy was.

We went to Crafts Direct after lunch. Man I love that place, it’s so big and they have everything.

We really need to get together more often. We have a lot of fun when we do get together!

The Nap

I have not taken a nap during the day for about a week now, but I was tired, so I figured Id sneak one in today. I kept tossing and turning and it felt like I couldn’t sleep. I woke up and had to use the bathroom and the clock said 1:30pm! It was 11:00 when I got in bed! Ooops!

When I was in the bathroom, I noticed that there was RED and BLUE all over our fairly new hand towel. I called Caitlin, and asked “What happened to the towel?” Caitlin replied “I don’t know.” I asked her what she had been doing and she said “Painting”. Oh great. If only you could see the things that ran through my head at that moment. I expected to have red and blue paint all through the house. Nope. There was paint on the paper that she got out, and paint on the hand towel. That’s it. Not a drop anywhere else or at least that I haven’t seen yet.

“Caitlin, why did you take out the paints?” Caitlin said “Because I could not find the play dough.” LOL ok then! After I sat down at my desk, Caitlin said “Well I did not get paint on Kie kie! She was waiting on the couch for me to be done painting”. Oh well that’s good. Don’t worry about the vanilla colored hand towel that is blue and red now. Hehe

We really do have great kids. She was only trying entertain herself while mommy, daddy, and Zoe were sleeping! She really did not make that big of a mess, and its only a towel.

Race

Today was the actual Birkie race. It was really exciting, but the best thing to me was at 6pm people were still going up main street toward the finish line. If the kids were either feeling better, or were sleeping, I would love to go cheer those people on. They did not give up. The kept going as long as they could. I would not be able to do a 51k race and finish!

Echo

There is an echo in our home...

Caitlin “Mom what are you doing?” Zoe “Mom what are you doing?” Caitlin “Sorry mom” Zoe “Sorry mom” Caitlin “I’m hungry” Zoe “I’m hungry” Caitlin “Why?” Zoe “Why?”

hehe

Hmmm

Ok.

This time of year...

Well it�s that time of the year when they put all the snow on the
street. Yes, I said PUT SNOW ON THE STREET! It�s for the giant ski race
(The American Birkebeiner) that
our city holds every year in February. I think the greatest part about
this is when they put the snow down. Others will say it�s the race that
they like the best. I do not like the fact that our town will be over
run by tourists that think they own the place. It�s extremely hard to
drive, shop, or do any daily tasks with all this commotion going on. I
can�t wait to get it over because my second favorite part of this time
is when they pick the snow back up! lol

WEeeeeeeee!

*pout*

*sigh* This morning Caitlin told me “I don’t like you any more mom!” because I took away the markers that she was playing with instead of coloring with. This is the first time I have heard this, I’m sure it won’t be the last, but man does it burn!

Plans...

Man… This is why I like to do stuff spontaneously! I made plans to go visit our friend Kat who had a baby six weeks early. Her baby Alexander is still in the hospital at the U of M.

Well Caitlin never got over her ear infection from two weeks ago. I took her back to the doctor yesterday; one ear is still a bit red, and the other has clear fluid in it. The doc gave us different antibiotics. Caitlin also has a horrible cough. I asked if there was anything I could give her for it, and she said a decongestant. Well I figured I would wait to see how Caitlin was doing this morning before we left. This morning, Caitlin is still coughing, complaining about her ear, has a low grade fever, and is extremely cranky.

So… We are going to stay home. I do NOT want to take Caitlin into the NICU with all the small babies, some who are fighting for their life. Those little babies do not need to be exposed to my coughing child. Even though she can not go into the room with the babies, the fact that she would even be in the building concerns me.

I hate when my plans fail.

Buttons

I know by other peoples standards my kids are angels but HOLY CRAP they are pushing my buttons today. Caitlin and Zoe decided it would be “fun” to play with the toilet paper in their room. Well this is my fault since the pack of tp was on the floor for a couple days and not where it belongs. But come on… Since when is toilet paper a toy?

Caitlin keeps making Zoe cry. I’m not sure how, because she only seems to do it when they are in their room. They are supposed to be picking up their toys but are not. I shut the television off after the toilet paper incident and now every few minuets Caitlin comes out and complains “My TV is off so I am out here because I am sad.” Okay… I tell her that I do not think she should watch TV since she is supposed to be picking up. Then she gives me these puppy dog eyes that are not working on me today.

This morning at breakfast, Caitlin wanted a banana, so I gave each of the girls one. Caitlin was playing with hers so I told her to stop. She said “But mom, we are eating bananas, so we are monkeys!” I told her that if she dropped her banana on the floor, momma was going to be MAD. Sure enough, a few minuets passed and she dropped half of her banana on the floor. Instead of eating the other half that was still on the table, she just whined about the one that was on the floor.

I asked Caitlin and Zoe to pick up all the toys in the living room and put them where they belong in their room. I had to ask twice before it was done.

We store some of the girl’s toys that are no longer played with in our tiny bedroom. This room as become some what of a storage room. I had to use the bathroom and when I was back there, I heard some noise coming from the room. Odd because they are not allowed in there, but there they were playing on the floor with their keyboard piano. So I told them that they could take it into their room and play with it and they could NOT go into that room again. Within ten minuets, I heard the door open… grr…

Weirdest Morning EVA!!!

This morning I wake up to Zoe crying. This really is not something too new; she tends to wake up before the rest of us. Well this morning, I went to get her out of her crib. Her bed was SOAKED, and I mean SOAKED. She some how traded her diaper for a pair of undies sometime after I put her to bed. I found her diaper outside of her crib, dry. How did she get the undies?? I asked Caitlin, who has been telling little white lies lately, if she had given them to Zoe. Her answer was “No.”. Okay... So I guess Zoe climbed out of her crib in the night and opened Caitlin’s dresser drawer, pulled out the undies, climbed back in her crib, took off her diaper, and put the undies on. Hmm…

Today

Well I did not do much today, probably not even enough to blog about, but ya. I did some dishes...Two "drying racks" full and cleaned the kitchen. Not that you can tell, cuz the trash is overflowing...Yukcypoo.

When I got up this morning, I got followed for about an hour by Tico. That was weird. Normally he doesnt really want much to do with us. I thought maybe he had no food or water, but he did...so I dunno! I guess he just wanted some attention.

I still did not put this mountain of clean laundry away. I should do that before it gets mixed up in the dirty laundry! I hate that when that happens...

I made some cards today.. That was fun. I took some of the stamped images I had laying around (ok well in a bin) and just created stuff with them.

Hmm what else did I do today... I took Caitlin to school...picked her up from school... Helped her clean her and Zoes room...Gave them a bath... Oh ya and fed them a few times.

I watched "LOST" tonight, it was OKAY. I dunno.. I am kind of bored with it, but I still watch it cuz I want to know WTF is going on. That and there is nothing else thats on at that time... Well Im sure there is, but nothing else that I want to watch

I need to get rid of this POS mouse and hook up my new one, but just have not gotten around to doing so. This one pisses me off... The pointer just jumps around randomly at times... Gets annoying and frustrating when it lands on something like "log out" and I click it cuz I thought I was still on something else that I actually WANTED to click on...

I feel kinda lazy lately. I am really stressed about some news that I received the other day. I cant really say much about it cuz its not set into stone yet.

Only 19 more days until I have to go house sit and Jodi sit. Weee. Im so excited. Can you feel the excitement flowing out of me?? Dont get me wrong, I totally do not mind doing a favor for my aunt and uncle. But Jodi is hard to take sometimes, and with as stressed as I have been feeling, putting up with her might just push me over the edge... I know... think of the money Ill be paid to Jodi sit. That should make it easier, but it doesnt. I just hope she doesnt have any incidents while I am there. In the last couple of months, she has had one (maybe two) seizures and she blacked out once (that COULD have been another seizure). The last time we house sat, she was quite the handful. I dont remember the details, but I know she pissed me off more then once.

Ok I guess I had stuff to blog about after all... Not that any of that was intresting though...

New Year Resolutions Reminder

Just reminding myself of my New Year Resolutions...


-Stick to a daily schedule
-visit family more
-stay up to date with online clubs
-Relax and enjoy life


Hmm Ok so I can say that the third one was easy to do. I am tring to maintain a schedule, right now my sleep schedule could use some improvement though.

Ok... Thats it.

Today

Wow time flies. Tomorrow is already Valentines Day. Seems like it just turned 2006! We got hubby a new video card and I got to order some stamps for our gifts. We are really easy to buy for when it comes to everything but flowers and jewelry. I like jewelry, just have never found anything I like to wear on a regular basis. When we got married we got the cheapest wedding bands we could find. This year we will be married for six years. We always talked about getting new wedding bands; maybe we will plan on this for our tenth anniversary.

I am working on some altered tins today. I love altering things. It’s so much fun. I have altered other tins and books. I hope to work on some scrap booking or stamping this evening too.

Front of tin

inside left

inside right

I am so happy that very few of our shows were not interrupted by the Olympics. I usually get unhappy around this time because TV tends to suck. Tonight is 24 night!!

Saturday

Hmm gonna try saving money this year... I hope it works out.. lol cuz I am bad, I like to spend spend spend. And of course, this change happens after I just spent money on a new barebones computer, a new desk, and bunk beds for the kids.

I have been working on some scrapbooks lately, I plan on doing one of each of us. I am currently working on Caitlins. Its going along smoothly! I can't wait to get it finished and work on Zoes! I think mine and Tonys will be the hardest to complete! hehe

wo0t!

We got our fedral tax return deposited today. It feels wonderful paying off a loan!


:D And now I can get new tires for the van!! Whoohoo!

Life

When its good, its great

When its bad, its aweful

Whoohoo!

My computer parts came yesterday and everything is back up and running!!!


In other news.. My mom is coming to visit us tomorrow! :D


Now I have to clean the house!LOL

Whoohoo!

My new computer should be here tomorrow sometime! Probably in the afternoon sometime, since thats what time UPS usually gets here!!!


*starts waiting for the UPS man*


just kidding

not really

Kazoo

We went to the Lake Superior Zoo yesterday. It was a bit chilly, but nice. We saw Llamas, a few different kinds of bats, and monkeys, & snakes. They had two different nacturnal exhibts; one was a a "Northern Territory" and the other one was "Austrailian". The Austrailian exhibit had a very distinct smell and the zoo posted a sign stating that even though it smells, the cages were cleaned on a daily basis and the animals probably think we smell too. LOL


Caitlin with a ginormous bear


Zoe with the ginormous SCARY bear

Tony being ate by a Llama

Sunday was an awesome family day. I can not wait to go to the zoo again, maybe when its a little warmer... and we have more time. Caitln and Zoe had a wonderful time. Tony and I learned about a lot of things that Caitlin knew and we did not know she knew....lol

Saturday

Well Saturday made its way through the week, and here we are. Tomorrow is Super Bowl Sunday. Not sure how much of that I want to actually watch tho. I guess it will depend on what hubby wants to do. I would love to stamp or scrapbook all day then chill at night, I am hoping my fav shows are first runs.


Ok well Saturday, blah blah boring.

Feb 3rd 2006

Oh my post titles are getting so intresting! hehe


Any who... today is Friday. Normally the IRS direct deposits their refunds on Fridays. Well its not here today. I guess we are out of luck until next Friday. SUX

I want my computer parts!

Well so far today, I have not done much around the house. I did some quick picking up last night, and the place looks OKAY. Funny how little things make such a big difference. Now I just have to get the laundry put away!

Whooohooo! It is snowing outside!! Now I wish we would get a blizzard. A good old fashion blizzard with 3 feet of snow. Like the one on Halloween several years ago. (Several several, like when I was a kid... it would have been my last year trick or treating)

We need snow soo bad for the local economny. The snowmobilers are far and few between. We had to cancel our "Winter Fest" due to no ice on the lake. They have snowmobile races on the ice. I guess pretty fun. Ive never gone.

We also need snow for our ginormous ski race that is held here every Feb....They put a ton of snow down on main street so they can continue the race to the finish line two blocks up from our apartment. Its pretty cool to watch.

Ground Hog Day

Okay so one saw his shadow and another did not. Does it really matter? Does a groundhog trumph Mother Nature? I guess he says we are up for six more mild weeks of winter. Does that go for all of the USA?

I watched The Skeleton Key last night. *I* thought it was a good movie. I started to watch Four Brothers, but I started to fall asleep so I shut it off and went to bed.

I <3 netflix.

Why is it that the phone MUST ring during climaxes of movies?? Is there a written law some where that states that you may only call someone during the creepy scene of the movie? Hmm ok I guess Ill just call that Murphys Law. Who is Murphy and why does he get a law? I guess Ill have to google that... that was very intresting.

Why must FEMA and the US Government search for someone to blame with their lack of readiness when Hurricane Katrina hit the gulf coast? Why dont they just suck it up and get over it and do something about it instead of sit around and figure out who to point the finger at. Help those people. Yes it does seem as if though some of the poorest people went thru complete devistation of their houses, some people say they are just looking for a handout. WTF?? Their houses are NO MORE! GONE! I dont think FEMA and the government are doing all that they can. Normally I dont worry much about this stuff but its on the news every day. Kinda hard to miss it.

HA! It seems "they" have been putting this new comercial thing at the begining of DVDs. They still have the usual FBI WARNING, and what not, but now they have this thing where they play some music, show video of a car and the words " you wouldnt steal a car" pop up, then they have video of a man whos about to take a womans handbag "you wouldnt steal a handbag", next they show video someone in a video store getting ready to steal a DVD "you wouldnt steal a dvd" ... Then they go on to say something about how DOWNLOADING pirated movies is illega. They say NOTHING about burning a dvd. But I guess that is covered under the FBI Warning. Weirdos.

I miss my computer...

...

bummed.

Still.

Still no tax refund (its only been a few days LOL)

Still no computer parts .

hmm..

So I didnt think I would miss my computer THAT much because I dont really do much other then surf the web, chat, check my email, and edit photos. I did not take into consideration that I have an alarm program on my computer to remind me of those silly things that happen every day. Seems simple for some people to automaticaly remember to do stuff like take their pills, play groups, appointments and what not. Well it is not that easy for me. I need reminders.


Last night, I chatted online for a while, surfed the net a bit, then decieded to watch the movie "CRASH" . I thought it was a really good movie, but there was some bad acting. I dont usually say that there is bad acting unless it is very bad. Any who... the movie ended about 10:30, and my heart sank. I forgot to take my pills at 9:30pm! I take them that early so by 11, I am ready to go to bed and sleep.. if I go earlier, I toss and turn.

So thats why I need my alarm on my computer! To remind me of these silly little things! I did set my phone alarm for 9:30pm to remind me to take my pills, so we will see how that goes.

Well that sucks...

I killed my computer! We think its the mother board. So hopefully will be getting a new one sometime soon!



UNTIL THEN... ya.. ok LOL

Taxes and other pointless info

I tried to do our taxes yesterday and failed miserably. Well not really, but I feel like I did. I used turbo tax online... I could not e-file at the time because at the time turbo tax was published, the form we need was not updated by the IRS. Grrrr... I looked it up on their site, and the form is due to be ready on the 28th. I was kinda hopeing to get them in before Friday, because in the past, they have direct deposited them on Fridays. So I guess we have to wait till the 28th.


In other news. lol news, like im that important to call it "news" hehe

... Zoe is becoming quite the little copy cat. Its so cute, she follows Caitlin everywhere, and does what she does.

... I thought my cold was over but yesterday I got all stuffed up again. I am on my second box of Cold Eeze. Boy does that make ya thirsty lol its a good thing too cuz I dont feel like drinking anything, and that way I have to

... My van needs new tires . Hope to remidy that with the tax return.

... Netflix r0x!

... I completed one load of laundry.. We all will have clean socks and undies, but no clothes to put over them. NO, NO PICTURES.

... I need to do the dishes.. and more laundry .. and mop the floors.

... I forgot to take my vitamins yesterday

... I should have gone to bed at 9pm like I planed to (as of last night)

... My kids get up at 7am(or so) no matter what time I go to bed

... I need to get back on my diet

... I need to go to bed

... You are really still reading this?

... I am done now

Transitions

It’s an amazing transition that takes place with an infant. They come into your life, demand every second of you mentally and physically. You must do everything for them; they are only able to cry, poop, pee, and sleep. Then they grow, they become more mobile. They start to roll, crawl, even talk. They begin to need you less except for your approval for some things they do. They begin to take shape as a toddler. They start to talk, know more of what they want and what they want to do. Zoe is in this constant transition. She is growing up to be a little girl. Caitlin is growing up into a little lady. Some of the things she does need some improvement to be a proper lady, but she is so cute when she dresses up or sings songs at the top of her lungs.

The downward spiral of my life..or at least my mind

I totally suck at being a human… To the point that I should not even be one. I can’t pay bills on time, I forget about parking tickets, and parking tickets are evil in this town. If you don’t pay them in 15 days, they almost double. If you don’t pay THAT in 15 days, they send it to the state and it makes your vehicle “unregistered”. WTF it’s a damn parking ticket. I got called and bitched out at 7:30 am this morning about a parking ticket. A PARKING TICKET. Not ten, not twenty, but ONE. ONE PARKING TICKET. For parking in front of our building.

I am worthless. I don’t think I could hold a job if my life depended on it. I just can not handle working. I don’t know why. I cant handle keeping the house clean either. I just get behind, and that causes me to get behind EVERYWHERE, then we live in chaos. I can provide the basic things for my children, barely, but I do. I cant really say the same for myself.

I don’t think my meds are working. I just had them raised last month. I live in a constant state of a low grade depression. It sucks.

um ok...

So i just posted about me not being able to post yesterday, and when i posted that, it some how posted my OTHER thing that i tried to post... See told you.. FLAKEY!

Hmm

So I tried to post a few times to my blog yesterday, but it did not take. I guess blogger was being flakey.

Anywho.. I tring to post that we got some snow.. About six inches of snow it snowed for about 12 hours.. ya. it snowed

I feel worthless today. I have no energy. NONE. I just walked to the post office and now it feels like 100 degrees in here! Thats not helping my energy!!!

OK im done. Thats it. Nothing else to say. Really. Im done. OK? Got it?

Thursday the 19th...

Caitlin got done with school today at 12pm. This was not as bad as I had expected. See, Caitlin, no matter how cute, sweet and innocent as she may appear, drives me crazy. Everything she does is like nails on a chalkboard to me. I hate feeling like this about her, cuz at the end of the day, I see past these things and I really do love her and feel horrible.

WOW is it snowing... Id say we have at least 3 or 4 fluffy inches. Its been snowing none stop since about 8:30am. Not sure when it plans to be over...

Thursday the 19th...

Caitlin got done with school today at 12pm. This was not as bad as I had expected. See, Caitlin, no matter how cute, sweet and innocent as she may appear, drives me crazy. Everything she does is like nails on a chalkboard to me. I hate feeling like this about her, cuz at the end of the day, I see past these things and I really do love her and feel horrible.

WOW is it snowing... Id say we have at least 3 or 4 fluffy inches. Its been snowing none stop since about 8:30am. Not sure when it plans to be over...

All that noise

I am not normally tolerant of noise in my house. For Christmas, my aunt and uncle gave the kids a set of musical instruments (tambourine, cymbals, macaranas, a triangle, and some other noisy instruments). I didn’t see myself ever allowing them to play with these toys while I am in the house, or even alive. Well today, I was feeling weird. I actually got them out and let the girls play with them, I even joined in. I must admit, I had fun, and I now plan to have “music time” with my girls on a regular basis now.

End of the "weekend"

It is Wednesday already. I know for some people that are a good thing because it is “hump” day and closer to the weekend. For our family, it means our weekend is ending, and Tony’s work week is beginning. He has Sunday thru Tuesday off, unlike those 9 to 5ers that have Saturday and Sunday off. No matter what he thinks, I do enjoy spending time with him, even if it just means we are across the room from each other. I do love our couch time when we watch TV or movies together also.

I had a good time last night at my “open scrap (booking)” thingy. There were more people there last night then the other times that I have been there. I think I have met half of them. I can’t say that I got any scrapbooking done though. I did work on some journaling, but I did not get much of that done either.

Oh what a day...

Today, I cleaned up our handmade wooden high chair that both of our girls used. It is both sad and joyful. It is sad, because we no longer have a “baby”, we have a toddler. It is joyful because our last baby is growing up. We are going to store it at my aunt and uncles house until we get a house of our own so we can use it when our grandchildren come to visit (in the very far far far away future).

Tonight is "Open Scrap(book)" night. I cant wait. This only happens once a month! Next Monday is "Stamping Fun" night. :D wo0t!

Sunday, Sweet Sunday

Today is Sunday… Sunday is supposed to be date night, except all of my shows are on Sunday night, which is normally OK cuz I can tivo them while we watch a movie or something. Well tonight, 24 is on. FOR TWO HOURS. One of those hours goes over Desperate Housewives!!! WTF was fox thinking?? Grr… I guess there is another two hour premier tomorrow too. Ok Monday night I can handle. Not Sunday … They better play this Sundays DH over next week or I’m gonna hurt some one! It wouldn’t be that big of a deal if it only went over EHMO: home edition. And it’s not a matter of which one to watch, because I do enjoy both and have been waiting for a new season of 24. Grrr!

END RANT!

Im blogging this.

A friend asked me what I wanted for Christmas... This is what I said... A "I'm blogging this." shirt and a USB blinking snowman. I like my gifts. :D

Thanks Braz!

Friday

This cold/flu thing needs to leave my body. Its not even 9am and I am exhausted. All I have done so far this morning was get the girls dressed, folded some laundry then took Caitlin to school and Zoe to the bakery.

*yawn*

I have some housework that I should do today, but my gosh I am tired. Maybe I will attempt to do some stuff after Zoe and I take a nap.

Hmm repeat of yesterday...

Thursday morning

This cold/flu thing needs to leave my body. Its not even 9am and I am exhausted. All I have done so far this morning was get the girls dressed, folded some laundry then took Caitlin to school and Zoe to the bakery.

*yawn*

I have some housework that I should do today, but my gosh I am tired. Maybe I will attempt to do some stuff after Zoe and I take a nap.

Wednesday

I received a Christmas scrapbook kit from one of my Secret Santa Swaps. Yesterday I worked on my first ever themed album, Christmas 2005. I had a lot of fun putting it together and it went fast because it was an 8x8 and included all the paper and stickers you would need to complete it. This was the first “kit” I had ever worked with, and it was kind of fun not having to search for the “perfect” paper for the page.

Zoe is in the Birth to 3 program due to her lack of communication when she was nineteen months. Last week they came and did an evaluation to see how she’s progressing. She went from being very behind on some things, to being ahead on them, although other areas stayed the same. The coordinators came to share the results with us this afternoon. She now no longer has the need for the program. Ill be sad not to have them come work with her on a weekly basis, but I know how short on help that they are and I know the need is greater for other children in the program. Besides, Zoe is a completely different child then she was a few months ago!

We still all have the sniffles and I have a constant head ach so I am sure the girls do also. We will try to get lots of rest in the next few days to try to get better.

Saturday

Today I had to go buy Caitlin some medicine for her cold that she got sometime last night. Along my walk to the van, I came across nine dollars just laying on the ground. I stopped, picked it up and looked around to see if there was a possible owner. Nope.

I drive to WalMart, park, and walk across the parking lot. I feel like I am being watched... I was. This person driving a SUV ... Was it ME? or my pink coat?... I walk into WalMart, and I noticed that they were really busy. I hate when they are busy. My social anxeity goes through the roof when I have shop with many other humans.

I go to the isle where the meds are in; this old lady gets in my way. I am in her way too. Does she move out of my way after I move out of her way? NO! UGh.. I go get some other stuff, then head to the check out. I went thru this girl that is related to my aunt some how. I asked her how she was doing and how her baby was doing; her baby is 3 months old.

I walk out of the first doors and give my cart to the "greeter" who says "Thank you VERY much for dropping your cart off!" WTF? I have two bags of stuff, they are light... Am I the only one who does not take a cart into the parking lot if I do not have to? I guess I am just weird. When I get a parking spot that is first to the door, I always bring my cart back inside instead of further OUT into the parking lot to a cart carrell. That just seems silly.

When I left Walmart, I put the van back into the parking lot for two reasons 1) so tony wouldnt have to do it, and 2) there were no parking spots in front of our building. When I got out of the van, I see this bird... OK PAUSE. If there is a phobia of birds pooping and it landing on you, I totally have it... OK PLAY.. flying sort of over me, I cringe thinking it was a stupid "rat with wings" as my husband calls seagulls, I notice that it is a bald eagle. Neat. I love nature, and I really love when I see things like this. Anywhoo the eagle made my day

Fridays Goal...

Todays goal is to go grocery shopping and get the menus back in tow. I really like my menus because I dont have to play the "what do you want for dinner" game. I hate that game! Right now, I have almost all of the lunches and dinners for this month planned! :D

Also, I need to finish some more laundry and dishes!

Oh and I would like to get some scrapbooking done this evening!

Thursdays goal

Today, my first goal is to get our house back in working order. Laundry, dishes, floors, everything must be done, so today I will work my hardest to get these things done. (yes i know im sitting at my computer, but im taking a break) And if I get to the point where all I have to do tomorrow is the floors and some laundry, Ill be doing good.

I slept about ten hours last night, so I should be able to complete my first goal.

My second goal is to drink more water. I was doing well at drinking enough water, but that slipped away along with my diet & routines.

New Years Resolutions

Well I figure if write down (or well type) my New Years Resolutions, I will have them burned into my head for future reference.

This year I plan to stick to a schedule. Being bi polar, I have a really hard time if I do not keep my routines. My whole world turns upside down; my mental health, our house, my moods. Everything is affected by my routines.

This year I plan to visit our family more often. We live an hour away from two of my grandmothers, my cousin and her kids, and my father. It would be nice if I were to get there to visit more often as one of my grandmothers is 94 and the other is in her seventies. I have not taken the girls to see my Grandma Lill in two years. It was two years ago at Christmas. We did go visit her and my father the same day we went to see Santa.

Tony’s grandmothers live about 7 hours away, so it’s not like we can go for the day. Tony works weekends so we can not go then, and Caitlin has school Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday. I have to find out what she has off for Spring Break and maybe go on a Sunday thru Tuesday. Tony’s grandmothers are not exactly young either. One of his grandmothers has some heart issues and other medical problems. His other grandmother seems healthy, but we still need to visit her more often.

This year I plan to stay up to date with my scrapbook club and my other club that I take part in. We do card swaps, and play fun games in the scrapbook club. I miss being on top of things with my clubs. The ladies in these clubs are wonderful!

This year I plan to relax and enjoy life more. Maybe some day Ill go get my first manicure and pedicure, a massage would be nice too. I need to relax when it comes to yelling at my children. I am so on the edge, everything sets me off. I just need to chill out. I need to enjoy these times with my children and family.

Well those are my New Year’s resolutions. I hope I can stick with them because I would feel much better and actually accomplish things.

2006

Happy New Year!

Queen of Crazyville

I feel like Queen this week. We received several gifts for Christmas this year and it feels like we are being pampered!

I received remote start for my van from my mother in law (too bad no one will put it in my van for me and it will be 300$ to have a shop to do it). I can’t wait to use this. I hate walking all the way to my van in the bitter cold weather to warm it up only to have to sit in the van while the windows defrost so I can drive it to our front door. (NOTE: I do not mind the SNOW, but I do mind the cold.)

From my aunt and uncle, we received 800tc sheets… mmMm nice. We house sat for them in April and I commented on how much I loved their sheets and that’s what they can get us for Christmas! The sheets on our bed were 400tc, and the 800tc are twice the thickness. They are awesome!

My mother gave us a gift card for Target to use towards new towels; they came via UPS this afternoon. They are so big and soft enough to be at the spa. I can’t wait to get them washed up and ready to use!

The four of us receved sweatshirts that bear the local schools sports name “the hurricanes”. I don’t know why they are that, but ok Ill go with the flow. Besides, everyone can use a new big fluffy sweatshirt once in a while!

End.

Santa and stuff...

Tony, Caitlin, Zoe and I went to go see Santa and the reigndeer! I still am not sure what Caitlin told him what she wanted for Christmas. He asked her what she wanted, and she said TOYS, he asked her what kind of toys, she said she didnt know! She then asked him "Where are you reindeer?" LOL She asked him a couple more times before they were through talking.

Zoes got thumbs up to whatever santa says

More Santa

Caitlin looking at the deer

More photos of Santa, Reindeer, & Christmas at Great Nannas and Gpa Brads

Ok no more deer or santa...

Propel

For those of you who have viewed my webcam the couple of times I have had it on, or have chatted with, you know how much I like Propel. So my blog today is about that. Ya, I am lame.

Yes there are two rows of propel in there!

I have tried 5 out of 8 flavors: kiwi-strawberry, grape, melon (ick), lemon, & tropical citrus. I dont like grape flavored things usually, but I LOVE grape propel.

OK thats enough about propel. My day is very dull today. LOL

Morning Rant

I HATE mornings. Why? Because everyone (kids and cats) wants something from me RIGHT NOW. Does not matter how fast I move, I am too slow for their morning demands. The cats want food and water; the kids want milk, fruit, & oatmeal. If I am too slow, Caitlin tells me every two seconds that she wants milk or oatmeal. Then it’s a straw, a napkin, and whatever else her tiny brain can come up with. Zoe doesn’t say much other then "guck" which is how she says milk. The cats run under my feet constantly and if I don’t get them water fast enough, they drink out of the toilet, which wouldn’t be so bad, but I put Clorox tablets in, and cats probably should not drink bleach water!

Then if I have not scooped the cat box in a couple of days, Tico is sure to let me know by giving me a wet rug (where I stand in the morning to get water for the kid’s oatmeal). UGH.
I know how to remedy this situation. It sounds simple to a person who is able to get out of bed and go on about their day. I need to stick with my Night time routine, and get up before my children, which some mornings would be before 6am and 8am others, then do my morning routine.

Any who… Today I am going to help my uncle with his Christmas decorations. This will be fun, Ill be outside, and away from my children for a bit.

Ugh, why cant children pick up their toys?? Don’t they realize how much easier it would be to play in a neat and orderly room?? I try to help when I can but geez, I can’t do it for them all the time! Yeah, Caitlin is ONLY four, but if she doesn’t learn now, when will she. I already called Santa and left him a message not to bring her toys. This did not work and now she complains about me calling him. I told her when she cleans her room I would call him back and tell him she was good.

/morning rant

Today

Today hubby, Zoe and I went to St. Cloud to pick up a computer from someone Tony works with so he could have a second computer.

Also, I got my gift from my TFMR SS. :D (they will remane nameless until Everyone else has received their gifts. (just in case any of them actually READ my blog) The huge box held some scrapbooking stuff, a cute apron for my dishsoap bottle (this is too cute btw) and a back massager for my chair! :D This had a note attached: "Here is a hint to this gifts contents: You Certainly don't need a man ( OR ) your husband to do this for you anymore! Now you can self stimulate! " lol

We also got our first netflix movies: The Amityvill Horror, The Sisterhood of the Traveling pants, and Bewitched.

Ok made dinner, and that fun stuff too.. ok END

Did you know...

Easy Ups have an expiration date?? ya... they do.

Sabotage

This morning, I got up, fed the girls breakfest, turned on the news, and noticed my angel was crooked. As I looked around, I realized there was more then just the lopsided angel. Our christmas tree had been vadiaized. DERN KITTYS!

poor christmas tree!

Oh and its snowing outside. Its supposed to snow every day this week EXCEPT for Tuesday. We were supposed to travel to go get a computer today, but for now those plans have been delayed.

Christmas Shopping

Ok I think I am done with the shopping part of christmas gifts. Now onto the ones I am making. Weeeeeeee LOL Christmas is coming wayyy to fast. Someone asked Caitlin today if she was ready for Santa to come, she said "no". I will remember this in a year or two when she will be begging for Santa to come visit.

I havnt talked to hubby about this yet (but he reads my blog) but I would like to take the girls to see Santa and the Reigndeer next Sunday. Bad part is, we have soo much traveling between dentist appointments, and doctor appointments that I am not sure I want to sit in the car agan. BUT, this also would be the PERFECT time to go see my dad and grandmother (that we havnt seen since LAST Christmas..).

OK END...

Dont

Dont leave me alone with myself. Yes you read that right, do NOT leave me alone with MYSELF. My mind just goes on and on and on, kind of like Caitlin who never stops talking. I go over everything in my life or whatever is on my mind, not once, not twice, but at least ten times before I get annoyed with MYSELF. Just makes me wonder how other people put up with me, how they dont get annoyed to the point of leaving me or punching my lights out. I guess thats why my best friend is my husband, and my other friend lives 3 hours away. I could go on about how bad my mind wanders and obesses but I will not.

Anywho. I went to the tooth devil today. UGH I hate having my teeth cleaned by them. I have good gums but they are sensitive along with my teeth. PLEASE do not blow air on my teeth :( It HURTS. DO NOT put cold water or hot water on them, OUCH. And for the love of buddah, do NOT stick that sharp pointy thing into what we both know is a cavity!!! DAMN YOU! Then after all this torture, you tell me that I am on a waiting list to have my cavity filled. Wonderful. So in other words, I will have to make another appointment for a cleaning, then I can get an appointment for fillings. I will not say anything about my wonderful *sarcasm* trip to the dentist and scare my children before they even meet one.

Ok I have to go eat, tonight is "open scrapbook" night.

Tree

I put up my tree. Here are the pictures! I took them this moring.

Here is Zoe wondering how many times she can touch the tree while mom is not looking.

Here is Tico, who also is wondering how many times he can EAT the tree before mom notices

My snowflakes! I love snowflakes!

And my tree. I think i should take another picture at night, its prettier at night

Murphy's Law

Mur·phy's Law (mûr'fēz) n. any of certain humorous axioms stating that anything that can possibly go wrong, will go wrong.

This morning, Caitlin had preschool which begins at 8am and ends at 3pm. Of course, today both girls slept in. Lately, Caitlin has been waking me up around 6:00am -6:30am. SUX. Today was the first day in a very long time that my alarm actually had to wake me up. Good to know that it still works.

It was so very warm out this morning with temps reaching -3F. Warm. It is currently 1f outside. I didn’t want to shut my van off. It didn’t even get to warm up when I took Caitlin to school, and it had been running for about thirty minutes. I’m almost positive had I stayed in there for a bit longer, the heat would have started coming out.

Last night sometime around 12:10am, my husband woke me up to ask me if we could afford wo0t! Or not. Woot featured a 250gig hard drive for 50$. Too bad we don’t have an extra 50$ to spare. SUX. Last week yes, this week no.

Our cat needs to go to the vet, and that will cost about 20$. Not too bad, but hey if we had another 30$, we could have got wo0t!. My cat has this very disgusting issue with his anal glands needing to be cleaned out. Normally this naturally but not with our damn cat. Also, this is usually an issue with dogs, not cats. Weirdo.


On Tuesday, both hubby and I have separate plans. We need a babysitter if we both want to do our activities that we have planned. He plans on going RPG with a bunch of friends, and I have “open scrapbooking” night.

End of my Murphy's Law banter

Intresting

I guess I will have to start posting more intertaining blogs since so many people are stumbling across it. I am a very boring person, so this will be difficult.

I am thinking about putting up my christmas tree today or tomorrow. Should be intresting to see how many times I have to say "NO, DO NOT TOUCH THE TREE" to the kids and the cats. I bought a new spray bottle just for the cats.

OK gonna go pick up some so I can put up the tree!

Who are...

All these people reading my boring blog? I have had twenty hits TODAY alone. Really I am boring. Other then the crazy shit that goes on in my head, not much else happenin here. lol

Of course, I guess thats why there are twenty new hits, and not any new comments!

diet update

Ive lost 8 pounds!

Time flies

So Ive been kinda down the last couple of weeks, been off my schedule a LOT, and that causes my life to spin out of control. See this post. When some people get down, they know what causes it. When a bi polar gets down, its bad. When someone who suffers from depression gets down, its also bad. People do not understand this. Look, I am down. Just getting out of bed and "doing" what ever it is that I need to do just does not work. I can not do it. It is phsyiclly and mentally impossible. Yes ok get up out of bed, get dressed, this I can accomplish. Feed the kids an self, check!, do daily tasks such as make bed, general straighting up, no, unable to accomplish. I am cripled, unable to go on with life, get the things done that I need to do...I have one week to see if rasing my meds (again) will work; so far, no. Anyways, I am tring very hard to get things back track.

Time flies. It is still Novemeber right? I mean, it IS the 30th and tomorrow IS December 1st, but it is STILL NOVEMBER! I got two christmas cards in the mail today. I still have halloween / fall decorations around and about. I am slowly taking them down, but they are still up...I make my christmas cards every year. I have yet to finish this project yet. I also am making severalgifts this year (again) and I have hardly started. I guess I should get off here, do my daily tasks, then start on these projects!

THE END!

Sick again?

So once again, Caitlin woke me up about ten times through out the night. First she was thirsty, then she had to go potty, then she wanted a hug, then she told me I was the "greatest mom ever", next it was a cough, then she was too sick to sleep, Zoe was up (because Caitlin kept getting up) there were a few that I just had no clue as to WHY she was waking me up AGAIN. She attempted to crawl in bed with me at one point, I told her that daddy had to sleep there when he got home! I know, mean ...

I got woke up around 5 with Caitlin coughing. So I got up and gave her some medicine, and went back to bed. About 5:30 Caitlin wanted something, and again at 6:00, 6:30, & 7:00am. WEE! Well tonight is gonna be great. I have no sleepy pills (I forgot to go to the pharmacy on friday) Funny how I can fall asleep during the day, yet I can not fall asleep at night when its time to do so.

Yesterday was Tonys last day for the 12 days straight (or however many there was). It will be nice to have him home! We each have plans for Sunday, Monday & Tuesday, but we will see each other before and after! Sunday hes going to go do some deep cleaning at the club, scrub the carpets and what not. Monday, Tony has play group with Zoe, Caitlin has school, and in the evening I will be going to a stamping thing. Tuesday Caitlin has a dr. apt (i think her ear infection is back / or never went away) and Tony has plans to go do some RPGing about an hour away.

WHOOHOO! For Sunday night TV! I love Extreme Makeover: Home Edition, Desperate Housewives, and Grays Anatomy. I cry for the first one, and then giggle for the second two! LOL

END!

Weird

The other day I had Caitlin practice her name. I wrote her name in the pink, she did the rest in the pencil. My mother in law called and Caitlin asked me how she did, I looked and said no thats backwards and went back to talking to my MIL. Tony looked over to Caitlins paper, he was confused. Then he folded the paper in half. Caitlin had writtin her name completely backwards, as if it were the mirror image of the name I had written. WEIRD...lol

OK so there it is... at the top..hehe

Snowed again..

Last night it snowed again. Couple of inches.. or so... who knows..

Anywhoooo, I waited up for my hubby cuz I havnt seen him or spent time with him in a while since hes been working. Im really glad I stayed up. It was great to spend time with him!

This morning (after getting 2 hours of sleep), I got up fed the kids, and I wanted to go play in the snow with the girls. So with out them knowing what mommy was preparing for, I got dry clothes set out and stuff ready to go play. We got dressed and away us girls went. We stopped at the park to play in the snow, and on the slides. I built them some snowmen, and gave them snowballs to play with! We all had a blast! In fact, Zoe cried when I put her in her carseat!

We came home and took off our wet clothes, and went and crawled in bed with sleepy daddy hehe

Time change...

Okay, so my kids seem to be off schedule since daylights savings. Getting up at 6:00am is getting old. I think I need to adjust their bedtime a bit. They usually are good sleepers, but Zoe has a cough that has been keeping us both up at night, and Caitlin keeps having nightmares and wanting to crawl in bed with me. This would be ok, but our bed is a queen and hubby and I both use "our" side to its full potential. I cant even count how many times in the last month or so how many times Caitlin has felt the need to wake me up for something.

And in other news, I am tring to get my christmas cards made, and other gifts ready. I have came up with five card designs, but havent been able to make more then 8 of one design due to lack of supplies. Oh well, what can ya do.

Well, most of our snow has melted, and this probably sucks for the hunters. No snow means its harder to track deer. I cant wait till hunting season is over and I get my husband back a couple nights a week.

Okay, I have just been informed that it is time for breakfest.

Cajun French Toast?

Soooo heres dinner...lol OOPS, I kinda got sidetracked and forgot about the french toast...

...and more snow

And then there was more...hehe

Okiedokie then...

My day..

Today I woke up at 6, thanks to my kids... LOL took a shower , got dressed, procrastinated (well not really, more of wasted time so we wouldnt leave insanly early for preschool.),bundled Caitlin up, took Zoe downstairs, took Caitlin to school, picked Zoe up from the bakery, bundled her up, went to Walmart, unbundled Zoe and myself, shopped, bundled us both back up, went to Pamida, (i knew we wouldnt be there long, but its hard to tell thatto a 2 year old) unbundled Zoe, shopped for like five mins, bundled Zoe back up, drove home, unbundled Zoe and self, played with Zoe, had a snack, put Zoe down for a nap, put self down for a nap, woke up, made lunch, woke up hubby, bundled self up to go buy boots (in black), came home unbundled self, said bye to hubby, bundled up Zoe, bundled up self, went to preschool bundled up Caitlin, came home, unbundled Zoe, unbundled Caitlin unbundled self... made dinner blah blahblah, 9:30ish bundled up self to go move van, moved van, unbundled self.. *sigh*

An AH HA! Moment

Hmm ever have one of those "AH HA" moments? Where you feel soo happy that you discovered what you did, but it should have been discovered previously?

My "AH HA" momment...

I purchased one of those Mr Clean MajicReach 's. I used it, I hated it and thought it was the worst product I have tried in a very long time. I emailed them to tell them their product sucked and a way they could improve apon their product. Well after weeks of no response on their part (they must have thought that this chick is NUTS and moved on), I finnally decieded to go ahead and give it ONE more try... I tried the "mopping pad" because my floor looked like it needed a pick me up. I opened it, then went to place it on the part where you should put it. Well my complaint about this product was, it has one spot to squish in the pad, and instead of using my brain the first time, i put the pad on backwards, so one end was flappin in the breeze when I was tring to use it. Well thats when my "AH HA" moment happend. I looked at the cleaning pad, and the cleaning handle, one end of the pad had a little pocket, the other end was free. OK, so you put one end inthe pocket, then you push the "free" end into the squishy thing. DUH... thats what makes it not "flap in the breeze"... OK I feel soooo dumb...

BTW, I know think that this product is NOT a big waste of time or money. I think it is awesome for cleaning the shower and the tub, and OKAY for a once over for moppng the floor. LOL Who knew?!

Still Snowing

Well its still snowing here. Dunno if you can tell the difference between this pic and the other pic, but here is the current view at 3:51 outside.

Today begins Tonys twelve days straight of work at the club. Hunting season starts this weekend, and I guess hunters come up here to hunt, drink beer, and watch girls dance. I am going to miss my husband while he is gone. Its weird looking over at his desk and him not being there MMRGPing, chatting or reading TotalFark. It kinda sucks, we just paid his monthly service for both, and he wont be home to use them! LOL

Tonight there was supposed to be  a playgroup for the birth to three program that Zoe is in. It was cancelled due to the snow. Oh well, I didnt feel like bundling up the kids, bundling up me, then rebundling up Zoe...

 

...Yeah.. So I went to pick up Caitlin from preschool...Set Zoe down, grabbed Caitlins back pack and coat, got her hat out of her sleve, put her hat on, mittens, coat. OK While did that, Zoe had taken off her hat, mittens, scarf, and coat. GREAT! Ok I feel like I burned a few hundred calories just by bundling up my kids, rebundling up my kids, scraping my van off for 15 mins this am, then another 10 when I went to pick caitlin back up! LOL better have burned a few

WHEW! I sure am wordy...

SNOW!

It snowed last night! WHOOHOO! Whoohoo until I had to bring Caitlin to preschool that is... there was ICE under the snow on my van. I kind of procrastinated this morning on leaving, well that and Caitlins hat was no where to be found, she lost one at school already too! It took me about 15 mins to clean off the ice and snow, making Caitlin late for school, which was fine cuz so was half her class LOL

LOST is on tonight! I cant wait! Well I guess I HAVE to wait.

Look! ICECYCLES! (Hubby says thats spelled right.. Hmm.. looks soo wrong!)

Caitlin was REALLY excited that there was snow on the ground cuz it means CHRISTMAS. How do you explain to a four year old who has NO concept of time, that Christmas is more then a month away! I am planning to make a count down calender for her, but sheesh, I am not ready to even start the count down calender yet! Thanksgiving isnt even here yet! I keep telling her that Thanksgiving comes before Christmas, but then she tells me Christmas is the day after Thanksgiving. Should I tell her that it is Black Friday and there are crazy mad people who go shopping and beat people up for gifts? Or should I leave that detail out until she is older...LOL

OK DONE!

My hubby

My husband got new glasses! Isnt he sexy :)

Tonys New glasses

Christmas Cards

I am soo happy when stuff finally gets together in my head! This is our christmas card (one of many, but this is the FIRST Ive completed)!

If you want one of my homemade cards, you better get me your snail mail addy early! I only send out so many!

My little helper

I am tring to get stuff done for christmas presents (I do them this early because I MAKE them ) and someone decieded to HELP me out.. Or so I thought... He got into my paper, and stole a scrap and ran away with it to eat it!

Tico, my helper

Our first snow!

This was our first snow fall! Man its hard to take a picture of fast falling SNOW! LOL

outside our front window

Its Saturday night...

and I am supposed to be doing crafty things. Tomarrow night I will be spending time with hubby and watching my Sunday night TV! Then Monday night, I am sure hubby will be RPGing. So I will have time to do some crafty things then. My new stamps, that I should not have got, will be here any day now! I am really excited! I cant wait to start making my christmas gifts and this will give me the extra boost that I need!


I did watch Mean Girls tonight, that was fun. Ive seen it before, so it was mainly just something going on in the background. OH! I also had company! Two nights in a row even! :) Our friend Brians car is broke, so he is in town more often. He stopped by yesterday, and hung out for a bit, we chattered back and forth, then when his friend got done with work, he caught a ride. Then tonight he was in town again and stopped by!

Hmm ok thats all I got...

OMG

OMG


Caitlin just went to the bathroom with out announcing it to me until I answer!! OMG


OMG

*Yawn*

Ugh I am down right exhausted! I am soo tired. I sleep well at night, except for the last couple of nights. Caitlin keeps waking me up, "I have to go to the bathroom", "I am thirsty", "I need a hug", ok well I understand why she would want a hug, and also she told me about a bad dream. I just dont get why I need to be woke up for water (she has a waterbottle that stays half full in the fridge), or why she needs to tell me she has to go to the bathroom.

I try dozing on the couch. That doesnt work very nice with a 2 year old and a 4 year old bouncing around. Caitlin constantly picks on Zoe, grabs her toy, sits too close for Zoes likeing, or deciedes she needs to crawl on me to tell me "Obie is coming up next".

I am so tired. I feel like I can barely move, my body aches, it screams for rest. Uninterupted rest. Look, I know this is part of being a parent, but come on, everyone needs a good nights sleep once in a while. Lately here its been far and few between. My kids hardly ever used to get up in the middle of the night. I understand that Caitlin has an ear infection and wants to be cuddled with. I just fail to see why I need to know at 2 am that she has to go to the bathroom, or that she is thirsty.

She talks all the time. NON STOP CHATTER . It gets very old very fast. Its great when shes telling me a story, or talking about school, or her friends at school, but even during the day she must tell me she has to go to the bathroom or get something to drink... She has actually peed her pants because I did not answer her when she told me 10 times that she has to go to the bathroom. WHY cant she just do these things?? HOW do I get her to STOP doing this??

I want a good nights sleep, UNINTERUPTED. I am so tired, I cant even make it through the day. I almost want to take up caffinee again. :(

Are you SURE that today is FRIDAY?

Have you ever woke up and thought that it was a different day then it actually was?? I was up at 7ish as usual, made the kids breakfest, put on cartoons, snoozed for a few on the couch, then I went to change Zoes diaper. I looked in the mirror, realized MAN I need a haircut! Then I thought about that for a second... WAIT... I had a hair appointment YESTERDAY! SHOOT! I missed it! WOW that sucks! *phone rings* (cant answer it cuz im still in diaper change mode). I put Zoe down and go check the phone. "enter hair place name here" Hmm... OH CRAP TODAY IS FRIDAY! Whoops... So I did get to reschedule for 1pm. Nice...

Living with me...

From the outside, I may look normal, but on the inside, im screaming. I suffer from bi polar disorder. Often, people do not realize all that makes up this disorder. People who are not educated on the disorder say that its all in your head, or its overly dignosed, or you can contorl it. The over dignosis of this may be true, and your right it IS in my head and it effects my entire body and those around me and NO I am unable to control it. I have rapid cycling bi polar which means my moods can switch weekly, even daily or worse yet, hourly. I dont think those around me fully understand this disorder and that "MOST" people can be treated. That leaves those other whatever percent that can not be treated. I am not sure which I fall under, because I have not been on every drug avalible to treat this. I know a few things that "trigger" my mania or my decent into depression... 1) scheduling changes, or falling out of my routine due to severe depression, 2) changes in my life, 3) other peoples attitudes or even comments towards me. Those are just a few.

Im writing this in hopes it will enlighten people and maybe help others understand what I go through on a daily basis.

Some days are good (normal), most are bad lately (depression), but others are too good (mania). I am hardly at the "normal" level. Sometimes, I will go out and spend money just because. I dont know why, because I know we are on an extremly tight budget, but I just do it anyways. Then I sit and regret it for days, sending me into depression, causing my daily routines to go to hell, then causing worse depression. It sounds easy to change to someone who is NOT bi polar. I know, just dont spend money, and stick to your daily routines... WELL DUH. If only it were that easy! I try very hard to stick to my routines, because it benifits my children.

I would LOVE to get a house some day, and I hate that I have to completly rely on my husband for financial support because I have a hard time holding a job. If my schedule at work changes, it throws me off, and down I go into depression. Some times being around people, sends me into mania, and neither are good in a work enviornment. I would love to have a normal life. I hate looking around at other people who (appear to be) are normal. They lead normal lives. I wish I could have a normal life.

CRS

Ever go to post something in your blog and completly forget wtf you were going to post??

Tuesday!

Im soo happy today is Tuesday! Tonight I get to stamp and scrapbook with other people! I hope I dont have such bad anxeity this time as I did last time! I got home and just shook for an hour. Tonight is also "My Time w/ Dad" through the Family Resource Center. BTW, thank gawd for TIVO! I am a big fan of NCIS, CSI, and all those shows and tonight NCIS is on (and My Name is Earl, The Office, & Law & Order SVU).

OKIEDOKIE THEN!

End of boring blog post!

Family Day!

We went to the park today! It was fun... heres pics...

OK so after a month or so of "dieting", I have yet to loose weight OR inches! THIS SUX! Ok so I went to the dr to get my thyrod checked. It was fine. OK here is what I have been doing for the last month ...

-taking a multi vitamin
-stopped drinking soda
-reading labels
-walking and paying attention to how much I move, and exersize
-taking Trimspa
-making sure my "serving sizes" were right on
-following the food pyramid (I didnt not eat fruits or veggies before all of this, my diet mostly consisted of sweets and fats)
-drinking LOTS of water & propel
-drinking FUZE instead of soda
-keeping track of what I eat
-cut out fast food almost all together
-eat 3 smaller meals and 3 snacks in one day (used to eat one meal and snack on junk food all day)

Before even asking what I have done to change my weight, the doctor says to me "Eat less, exersize more, thats all there is to it" UM OK THEN...grrr What have I been doing for the last month?? Over eating? I was under eating before, now I am doing the opposite I guess, even though its more balanced and smaller proportions. Hmm I dunno...I guess Ill go back to eating almost nothing and exersize from morning till night.


*side note* my BMI is 28.9, and above 30 is obese

Kids are WEIRD

OK so Zoe has these socks with non skid bottoms on them. She freakin fell on the kitchen floor...Did I use pledge on it while I was sleeping??


Caitlin says to me "Mom, let me wisker into your ear" LMAO!


Thats all Ive got today...

Did you know...

My Little Pony has magnetic feet?? They stick to my freakin fridge, and yes they have CLEAN feet :P and YES they arnt feet, but then again they ARE because they dont have "hooves" on them LOL

That gold fish change colors? Yup ours did. At first I thought he was dieing. He looked "dirty" like he needed a bath...How do you bathe a fish?

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.


A bee has five eyes, two large compound eyes on either side of its head, and three ocelli (primitive eyes) on top of its head to detect light intensity.

The Moose is the world's largest deer.

The Koala lives entirely on eucalyptus and does not drink water.

The Sloth grows green algae on its hair for camouflage.

OK had enough yet?? LOL

Halloween

Our girls on Halloween.