Saturday, January 28, 2006

hmm..

So I didnt think I would miss my computer THAT much because I dont really do much other then surf the web, chat, check my email, and edit photos. I did not take into consideration that I have an alarm program on my computer to remind me of those silly things that happen every day. Seems simple for some people to automaticaly remember to do stuff like take their pills, play groups, appointments and what not. Well it is not that easy for me. I need reminders.


Last night, I chatted online for a while, surfed the net a bit, then decieded to watch the movie "CRASH" . I thought it was a really good movie, but there was some bad acting. I dont usually say that there is bad acting unless it is very bad. Any who... the movie ended about 10:30, and my heart sank. I forgot to take my pills at 9:30pm! I take them that early so by 11, I am ready to go to bed and sleep.. if I go earlier, I toss and turn.

So thats why I need my alarm on my computer! To remind me of these silly little things! I did set my phone alarm for 9:30pm to remind me to take my pills, so we will see how that goes.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Well that sucks...

I killed my computer! We think its the mother board. So hopefully will be getting a new one sometime soon!



UNTIL THEN... ya.. ok LOL

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Taxes and other pointless info

I tried to do our taxes yesterday and failed miserably. Well not really, but I feel like I did. I used turbo tax online... I could not e-file at the time because at the time turbo tax was published, the form we need was not updated by the IRS. Grrrr... I looked it up on their site, and the form is due to be ready on the 28th. I was kinda hopeing to get them in before Friday, because in the past, they have direct deposited them on Fridays. So I guess we have to wait till the 28th.


In other news. lol news, like im that important to call it "news" hehe

... Zoe is becoming quite the little copy cat. Its so cute, she follows Caitlin everywhere, and does what she does.

... I thought my cold was over but yesterday I got all stuffed up again. I am on my second box of Cold Eeze. Boy does that make ya thirsty lol its a good thing too cuz I dont feel like drinking anything, and that way I have to

... My van needs new tires . Hope to remidy that with the tax return.

... Netflix r0x!

... I completed one load of laundry.. We all will have clean socks and undies, but no clothes to put over them. NO, NO PICTURES.

... I need to do the dishes.. and more laundry .. and mop the floors.

... I forgot to take my vitamins yesterday

... I should have gone to bed at 9pm like I planed to (as of last night)

... My kids get up at 7am(or so) no matter what time I go to bed

... I need to get back on my diet

... I need to go to bed

... You are really still reading this?

... I am done now

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Transitions

It’s an amazing transition that takes place with an infant. They come into your life, demand every second of you mentally and physically. You must do everything for them; they are only able to cry, poop, pee, and sleep. Then they grow, they become more mobile. They start to roll, crawl, even talk. They begin to need you less except for your approval for some things they do. They begin to take shape as a toddler. They start to talk, know more of what they want and what they want to do. Zoe is in this constant transition. She is growing up to be a little girl. Caitlin is growing up into a little lady. Some of the things she does need some improvement to be a proper lady, but she is so cute when she dresses up or sings songs at the top of her lungs.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

The downward spiral of my life..or at least my mind

I totally suck at being a human… To the point that I should not even be one. I can’t pay bills on time, I forget about parking tickets, and parking tickets are evil in this town. If you don’t pay them in 15 days, they almost double. If you don’t pay THAT in 15 days, they send it to the state and it makes your vehicle “unregistered”. WTF it’s a damn parking ticket. I got called and bitched out at 7:30 am this morning about a parking ticket. A PARKING TICKET. Not ten, not twenty, but ONE. ONE PARKING TICKET. For parking in front of our building.

I am worthless. I don’t think I could hold a job if my life depended on it. I just can not handle working. I don’t know why. I cant handle keeping the house clean either. I just get behind, and that causes me to get behind EVERYWHERE, then we live in chaos. I can provide the basic things for my children, barely, but I do. I cant really say the same for myself.

I don’t think my meds are working. I just had them raised last month. I live in a constant state of a low grade depression. It sucks.

Friday, January 20, 2006

um ok...

So i just posted about me not being able to post yesterday, and when i posted that, it some how posted my OTHER thing that i tried to post... See told you.. FLAKEY!

Hmm

So I tried to post a few times to my blog yesterday, but it did not take. I guess blogger was being flakey.
Anywho.. I tring to post that we got some snow.. About six inches of snow it snowed for about 12 hours.. ya. it snowed
I feel worthless today. I have no energy. NONE. I just walked to the post office and now it feels like 100 degrees in here! Thats not helping my energy!!!
OK im done. Thats it. Nothing else to say. Really. Im done. OK? Got it?

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Thursday the 19th...

Caitlin got done with school today at 12pm. This was not as bad as I had expected. See, Caitlin, no matter how cute, sweet and innocent as she may appear, drives me crazy. Everything she does is like nails on a chalkboard to me. I hate feeling like this about her, cuz at the end of the day, I see past these things and I really do love her and feel horrible.




WOW is it snowing... Id say we have at least 3 or 4 fluffy inches. Its been snowing none stop since about 8:30am. Not sure when it plans to be over...



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Thursday the 19th...

Caitlin got done with school today at 12pm. This was not as bad as I had expected. See, Caitlin, no matter how cute, sweet and innocent as she may appear, drives me crazy. Everything she does is like nails on a chalkboard to me. I hate feeling like this about her, cuz at the end of the day, I see past these things and I really do love her and feel horrible.
WOW is it snowing... Id say we have at least 3 or 4 fluffy inches. Its been snowing none stop since about 8:30am. Not sure when it plans to be over...

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

All that noise

I am not normally tolerant of noise in my house. For Christmas, my aunt and uncle gave the kids a set of musical instruments (tambourine, cymbals, macaranas, a triangle, and some other noisy instruments). I didn’t see myself ever allowing them to play with these toys while I am in the house, or even alive. Well today, I was feeling weird. I actually got them out and let the girls play with them, I even joined in. I must admit, I had fun, and I now plan to have “music time” with my girls on a regular basis now.

End of the "weekend"

It is Wednesday already. I know for some people that are a good thing because it is “hump” day and closer to the weekend. For our family, it means our weekend is ending, and Tony’s work week is beginning. He has Sunday thru Tuesday off, unlike those 9 to 5ers that have Saturday and Sunday off. No matter what he thinks, I do enjoy spending time with him, even if it just means we are across the room from each other. I do love our couch time when we watch TV or movies together also.

I had a good time last night at my “open scrap (booking)” thingy. There were more people there last night then the other times that I have been there. I think I have met half of them. I can’t say that I got any scrapbooking done though. I did work on some journaling, but I did not get much of that done either.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Oh what a day...

Today, I cleaned up our handmade wooden high chair that both of our girls used. It is both sad and joyful. It is sad, because we no longer have a “baby”, we have a toddler. It is joyful because our last baby is growing up. We are going to store it at my aunt and uncles house until we get a house of our own so we can use it when our grandchildren come to visit (in the very far far far away future).
Tonight is "Open Scrap(book)" night. I cant wait. This only happens once a month! Next Monday is "Stamping Fun" night. :D wo0t!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Sunday, Sweet Sunday

Today is Sunday… Sunday is supposed to be date night, except all of my shows are on Sunday night, which is normally OK cuz I can tivo them while we watch a movie or something. Well tonight, 24 is on. FOR TWO HOURS. One of those hours goes over Desperate Housewives!!! WTF was fox thinking?? Grr… I guess there is another two hour premier tomorrow too. Ok Monday night I can handle. Not Sunday … They better play this Sundays DH over next week or I’m gonna hurt some one! It wouldn’t be that big of a deal if it only went over EHMO: home edition. And it’s not a matter of which one to watch, because I do enjoy both and have been waiting for a new season of 24. Grrr!


END RANT!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Im blogging this.


A friend asked me what I wanted for Christmas... This is what I said... A "I'm blogging this." shirt and a USB blinking snowman. I like my gifts. :D


Thanks Braz!

Friday, January 13, 2006

Friday

This cold/flu thing needs to leave my body. Its not even 9am and I am exhausted. All I have done so far this morning was get the girls dressed, folded some laundry then took Caitlin to school and Zoe to the bakery.

*yawn*

I have some housework that I should do today, but my gosh I am tired. Maybe I will attempt to do some stuff after Zoe and I take a nap.
Hmm repeat of yesterday...

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Thursday morning

This cold/flu thing needs to leave my body. Its not even 9am and I am exhausted. All I have done so far this morning was get the girls dressed, folded some laundry then took Caitlin to school and Zoe to the bakery.
*yawn*
I have some housework that I should do today, but my gosh I am tired. Maybe I will attempt to do some stuff after Zoe and I take a nap.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Wednesday

I received a Christmas scrapbook kit from one of my Secret Santa Swaps. Yesterday I worked on my first ever themed album, Christmas 2005. I had a lot of fun putting it together and it went fast because it was an 8x8 and included all the paper and stickers you would need to complete it. This was the first “kit” I had ever worked with, and it was kind of fun not having to search for the “perfect” paper for the page.

Zoe is in the Birth to 3 program due to her lack of communication when she was nineteen months. Last week they came and did an evaluation to see how she’s progressing. She went from being very behind on some things, to being ahead on them, although other areas stayed the same. The coordinators came to share the results with us this afternoon. She now no longer has the need for the program. Ill be sad not to have them come work with her on a weekly basis, but I know how short on help that they are and I know the need is greater for other children in the program. Besides, Zoe is a completely different child then she was a few months ago!

We still all have the sniffles and I have a constant head ach so I am sure the girls do also. We will try to get lots of rest in the next few days to try to get better.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Saturday

Today I had to go buy Caitlin some medicine for her cold that she got sometime last night. Along my walk to the van, I came across nine dollars just laying on the ground. I stopped, picked it up and looked around to see if there was a possible owner. Nope.

I drive to WalMart, park, and walk across the parking lot. I feel like I am being watched... I was. This person driving a SUV ... Was it ME? or my pink coat?... I walk into WalMart, and I noticed that they were really busy. I hate when they are busy. My social anxeity goes through the roof when I have shop with many other humans.

I go to the isle where the meds are in; this old lady gets in my way. I am in her way too. Does she move out of my way after I move out of her way? NO! UGh.. I go get some other stuff, then head to the check out. I went thru this girl that is related to my aunt some how. I asked her how she was doing and how her baby was doing; her baby is 3 months old.

I walk out of the first doors and give my cart to the "greeter" who says "Thank you VERY much for dropping your cart off!" WTF? I have two bags of stuff, they are light... Am I the only one who does not take a cart into the parking lot if I do not have to? I guess I am just weird. When I get a parking spot that is first to the door, I always bring my cart back inside instead of further OUT into the parking lot to a cart carrell. That just seems silly.

When I left Walmart, I put the van back into the parking lot for two reasons 1) so tony wouldnt have to do it, and 2) there were no parking spots in front of our building. When I got out of the van, I see this bird... OK PAUSE. If there is a phobia of birds pooping and it landing on you, I totally have it... OK PLAY.. flying sort of over me, I cringe thinking it was a stupid "rat with wings" as my husband calls seagulls, I notice that it is a bald eagle. Neat. I love nature, and I really love when I see things like this. Anywhoo the eagle made my day

Friday, January 06, 2006

Fridays Goal...

Todays goal is to go grocery shopping and get the menus back in tow. I really like my menus because I dont have to play the "what do you want for dinner" game. I hate that game! Right now, I have almost all of the lunches and dinners for this month planned! :D

Also, I need to finish some more laundry and dishes!

Oh and I would like to get some scrapbooking done this evening!

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Thursdays goal

Today, my first goal is to get our house back in working order. Laundry, dishes, floors, everything must be done, so today I will work my hardest to get these things done. (yes i know im sitting at my computer, but im taking a break) And if I get to the point where all I have to do tomorrow is the floors and some laundry, Ill be doing good.

I slept about ten hours last night, so I should be able to complete my first goal.

My second goal is to drink more water. I was doing well at drinking enough water, but that slipped away along with my diet & routines.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

New Years Resolutions

Well I figure if write down (or well type) my New Years Resolutions, I will have them burned into my head for future reference.

This year I plan to stick to a schedule. Being bi polar, I have a really hard time if I do not keep my routines. My whole world turns upside down; my mental health, our house, my moods. Everything is affected by my routines.

This year I plan to visit our family more often. We live an hour away from two of my grandmothers, my cousin and her kids, and my father. It would be nice if I were to get there to visit more often as one of my grandmothers is 94 and the other is in her seventies. I have not taken the girls to see my Grandma Lill in two years. It was two years ago at Christmas. We did go visit her and my father the same day we went to see Santa.

Tony’s grandmothers live about 7 hours away, so it’s not like we can go for the day. Tony works weekends so we can not go then, and Caitlin has school Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday. I have to find out what she has off for Spring Break and maybe go on a Sunday thru Tuesday. Tony’s grandmothers are not exactly young either. One of his grandmothers has some heart issues and other medical problems. His other grandmother seems healthy, but we still need to visit her more often.

This year I plan to stay up to date with my scrapbook club and my other club that I take part in. We do card swaps, and play fun games in the scrapbook club. I miss being on top of things with my clubs. The ladies in these clubs are wonderful!

This year I plan to relax and enjoy life more. Maybe some day Ill go get my first manicure and pedicure, a massage would be nice too. I need to relax when it comes to yelling at my children. I am so on the edge, everything sets me off. I just need to chill out. I need to enjoy these times with my children and family.

Well those are my New Year’s resolutions. I hope I can stick with them because I would feel much better and actually accomplish things.

Monday, January 02, 2006

2006

Happy New Year!